I posted my first article here three years ago today – I thought it was the 30th until I looked it up a little while ago. There are more pressing dates to remember in June – our wedding anniversary for one, and the dog birthdays, but this occasion brings to mind some things I discovered that first summer of blogging.
A few days before my first post, I attended an all day blogging seminar hosted by the local branch of the California Writer’s Club. The teacher had an unusual qualification – he actually made a good living as a blogger. He did this by running eight different blogs on eight different topics which gained him 50,000 – 80,000 hits a month.
Beyond passing along the mechanics of WordPress, the seminar was geared toward his approach, which aimed at drawing advertisers and eyeballs. At first I tried to follow his rules, ones like “Posts should run between 150-250 words in length.” I still mostly aim for the 150 minimum – I trust his research suggesting that Google’s search algorithms favor messages at least that long, but I’ve tossed almost all his other rules. I did so because something unexpected began to happen – blogging took on a life of its own.
I’d taken the seminar for the worst of reasons. I had finished one novel and started another, and I fell prey to the notion, passed around in writing groups and magazines, that aspiring writers should migrate to social media “to build their platforms.”
From the start, this advice reminded me of something annoying that periodically happened in my technology day job. During cyclical downturns, when vertical mobility dried up, upper management would dream up busy-work tasks, like “write a five year career plan.” Given the dizzying pace of technological change, almost any kind of five year plan seemed like a joke. Fortunately, my supervisor agreed, so I’d email him something like, “My plan is to still have a job in five years,” and he’d mark it “Done.”
Once the blogging door started to open, I did something similar with the concept of “platform:” borrowing the tech concept of “just-in-time inventory,” I decided to wait until I needed one!
That may be a long wait, as it turns out, because the “blogging door” was a new entryway into writing-as-a-way-to-discover-things.” That was a door I’d let close on my fiction, because of inexperience more than anything else.
When I started my first novel, during a sabbatical from work, I would sometimes jump up at 5:30am, wide awake. “I wonder what’s going to happen today?” Later I realized the first novel was a mess, though I loved every minute of writing it. I joined groups, attended seminars, and devoured how-to-articles. Somewhere along the line, my stories stopped being mine. Once I knew what was going to happen on any particular day, I was no longer interested.
The blogging door remains open. Here I make new discoveries, surprising myself, and never know for sure where it’s going today. I also get to share the amazing discoveries of others, like the post I re-blogged last week in which Kristen Lamb presents a simple but powerful way of keeping the doors of discovery open in fiction (Write FAST and Furious).
I enjoy many blogs that have a singular focus, and this week of milestones, I found myself recalling the words of that first blogging teacher, who advised that this is the only way to go. I entertained the notion for maybe 60 seconds. It simply wouldn’t work for me, a poster boy for the late James Hillman’s concept of “the polytheistic psyche.”
As Michael Ventura, a journalist and friend of Hillman’s put it: “For too long Western thought has mistaken the impulse to unify for the entity itself (the psyche) that needs such an impulse because of it’s very multiplicity.”
Ventura also said, “If you are the only one in the room, it is still a crowded room.”
In the beginning, I called this blog, “thefirstgate,” singular. I discuss the source of the name, the opening of T.S. Eliot’s The Four Quartets, in my About page. Then, as I discovered there are other interesting “first gates,” I made the name plural, and even registered the domain name, firstgates.com.
In the Spring of 2012, I received a notice that a similar domain name, thefirstgate.com (singular) had become available, and I could buy it. I did so, and since then, I’ve played with the notion of changing the name to emphasize my original inspiration.
I began this post, intending to announce a change to the singular form. Then I came upon this passage in Michael Ventura’s Shadow Dancing in the USA, 1985 (out of print). Here he describes the theory of “the polytheistic psyche:”
“…the notion that we have not a single center, but several centers; that each of these centers may act independently of each other; and that each center has in turn various active aspects, or shadings; and that all these centers are unified more by an atmosphere, an overall mood and rhythm, than by anything as solid as…an ego.”
No way, after reading that, could I surrender an ounce of multiplicity! So on the occasion of this anniversary, I will predict more of the same – not knowing quite what I’m going to say when I sit down to write. False starts and dead ends on occasion, but hopefully, ongoing and interesting surprises for all of us.
Blogging I think is not like business, at least for me and perhaps for you it’s more like life… Keep writing well my friend and I hope you never stop discovering.
It’s kind of like talking out loud or writing a public journal. I can’t really say what – it’s a unique medium.
Hurray for the plural!
Like most tasks, blogging should primarily be for Enjoyment, with many other ‘e’s following on in whatever order suits: Elucidation or Education, for example, or social Engagement. Gainful Employment ought to be somewhere lower down, as befits mere venality. Unless making money per se is what you enjoy, of course.
When I taught Music in secondary (high) school, I suggested that those opting for it after it was no longer a compulsory subject should consider their choice in the light of three hierarchical principles (no I didn’t use these precise words): for enjoyment; as preparation for further study (and hopefully enjoyment) in the future; and, last and definitely least, because it would stand them in good stead for a paid job. Quite apart from the fact that few make it as professional musicians (though rather more do as teachers), if enjoyment of music wasn’t their over-riding principle then there was little point making it your life’s work, paid or not.
I agree with you. I try not to judge other people’s motives for blogging or any kind of writing, for that matter – it’s not my business. But I vividly remember creative endeavors I did for external motives that stopped being pleasurable. I’ve observed the same thing, as clearly or more so, among writer friends. It’s a strange kind of dance, to put something out for the public yet try to let go of the result, whatever it is. It gets easier as time goes on – the older I get, the crazier it seems to hand my self worth over to anyone else’s opinion…
I’m glad we’re in agreement! I suppose what we do is what’s known as a vocation, something done because we feel a calling (and not just, or in my case not because of, a religious one).
That’s what I ultimately hated about school teaching: when I started it was exactly “to put something out” for my public, that is, my students. But by the end it had morphed into an accountability-by-numbers thing and what you describe: handing over one’s self-worth to the uncomprehending and often philistine opinions of superiors.
I now just teach piano, how I want to and how it seems to suit my students; and the rewards are their own self-justification.
I blog for sanity, sharing the little people of my soul with anyone who wants to listen to them. Here’s to polytheism and falling apart!
I’m very glad you dropped by. I discussed that very topic in relation to this blog at the end of June (http://wp.me/pYql4-3oZ), when milestone of the 500th post fell within a few days of the 3d anniversary of the blog. Here’s a quote from that post:
As Michael Ventura, a journalist and friend of Hillman’s put it: “For too long Western thought has mistaken the impulse to unify for the entity itself, (the psyche) that needs such an impulse because of it’s very multiplicity.”
Ventura also said, “If you are the only one in the room, it is still a crowded room.”
Sorry I missed your reply back in July!
Love the Ventura quotes.
Congrats on the milestones. I look forward to reading more of your posts!
Glad you found it and liked the quotes.